Faith Even When It Hurts
Throughout the past week, we had a schedule full of doctor visits, and various tests on top of our regular work schedules and routines. I've never had to "bare all" to so many random people in such a short amount of time before! I tried to get used to being poked and showing the family goods to the medical people, but no matter how you look at it....it's just plain awkward. (For one....where are you supposed to look when strangers are "inspecting" you!?) I've become rather familiar with ceiling surfaces.
In the midst of all that, my back wasn't seeming to recover from the move, and gradually, I was becoming more and more limpy. Within three days, I could barely walk. We went to the chiropractor every other day, and I wasn't getting any better. For those of you who have never experienced back pain before, trust me, you never want to! Not that I'm a big pain expert, but there really is no pain like back pain. Imagine not being able to stand up straight and feeling like your lower half is going to somehow become disconnected with your upper half and in the middle of all that, the nerves connecting all your pain receptors to your legs are angry. By the third visit to the chiropractor, we realized our brand new bed was the main contributor to my lack of recovery!
By this point...after a bad move, after being diagnosed, after bad reports, after having to move again, after doctor visit after doctor visit, after spending 4 days unable to walk or sit right...we were fighting discouragement. It's one thing to fight the fight of faith when you feel good, and it's something entirely different to fight while you're in pain. Pain has a way of demanding all your attention, and what is seen in the natural feels much more real than what you believe in the spirit!
In times like these, you need to factor in that the power to change your circumstances around is still yours. It's the power of choice. Either God's Word is true or it isn't. Either God is good or He isn't. Either you're an overcomer or a victim. And to be honest, lying in that bed, I had to fight real hard to not feel sorry for myself. I was so done! Knowing we still had a big battle ahead of us to fight, we were weary. I struggled with what to think about it all, and how to apply my attitude in the middle of the situation.
God told me, "Until you know what you are believing for, just be quiet." Proverbs 18:21 says, "The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love to talk will have to eat their own words." Don't hinder your progress with your own understanding or a negative confession over your circumstances. If you can't find anything good to say about the situation, then find a verse and speak that! When you're in the middle of choosing between flesh and spirit, and you don't know where you stand, then just be quiet and wait until God gets you there.
In the midst of all that, my back wasn't seeming to recover from the move, and gradually, I was becoming more and more limpy. Within three days, I could barely walk. We went to the chiropractor every other day, and I wasn't getting any better. For those of you who have never experienced back pain before, trust me, you never want to! Not that I'm a big pain expert, but there really is no pain like back pain. Imagine not being able to stand up straight and feeling like your lower half is going to somehow become disconnected with your upper half and in the middle of all that, the nerves connecting all your pain receptors to your legs are angry. By the third visit to the chiropractor, we realized our brand new bed was the main contributor to my lack of recovery!
By this point...after a bad move, after being diagnosed, after bad reports, after having to move again, after doctor visit after doctor visit, after spending 4 days unable to walk or sit right...we were fighting discouragement. It's one thing to fight the fight of faith when you feel good, and it's something entirely different to fight while you're in pain. Pain has a way of demanding all your attention, and what is seen in the natural feels much more real than what you believe in the spirit!
In times like these, you need to factor in that the power to change your circumstances around is still yours. It's the power of choice. Either God's Word is true or it isn't. Either God is good or He isn't. Either you're an overcomer or a victim. And to be honest, lying in that bed, I had to fight real hard to not feel sorry for myself. I was so done! Knowing we still had a big battle ahead of us to fight, we were weary. I struggled with what to think about it all, and how to apply my attitude in the middle of the situation.
God told me, "Until you know what you are believing for, just be quiet." Proverbs 18:21 says, "The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love to talk will have to eat their own words." Don't hinder your progress with your own understanding or a negative confession over your circumstances. If you can't find anything good to say about the situation, then find a verse and speak that! When you're in the middle of choosing between flesh and spirit, and you don't know where you stand, then just be quiet and wait until God gets you there.
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